i know you’ll read this so here i go..
you sit here day after day waiting for someone to tell you you’re nothing but shit, you’re not worth it, so on and so forth but why? yes you’ve had a past and yes its hard to overlook but no. please don’t kill yourself. why do i choose to still sit here and call you my best friend? because you mean nearly everything to me. you’re my other half, i’m promising you that if you go through with this, you’re being nothing but selfish. do you know how hard it would be for me to get back on my feet? how long i would trap myself in darkness? believe it or not but your emotions and feelings affect mine as well. we both know i haven’t been the happiest person lately and I’m slowly slipping into depression. one, because of ian. two, because i’m so helpless. i don’t know how to convince you otherwise that life is worth living. in order for you to enjoy it, you have to let things go. you cant sit here and hold these grudges for so long. they aren’t getting you anywhere. it hurts me that you cant open up to me knowing i’m your best friend and that i’ll do anything to help. everyday i sit here and think, is miranda okay? i hope she’s happy. i wanna make her smile.
you’re different y’know. your personality is so attracting. you’re such a beautiful and smart girl and i don’t know why you’ve let things get this far. i don’t know why you don’t believe in yourself. you’re worth much more than you think. no one looks down upon yourself but YOU. you are whats hurting yourself. no one here on earth wants you more alive than me. just please, find a way to get out of this state of mind. I’m so sorry i cant help, i honestly am just stuck i don’t know what to do, but I’m not going anywhere and neither are you. as long as I’m here on earth, so will you. remember how we planned to be best friends forever, all the plans we made to go to new york, hawaii, puerto rico, everything? WE’RE GOING TO ACCOMPLISH THEM. and i cant and wont do it without you.
you’re such a significant person to my life. you’ve helped me in so many ways and please just let me do the same. i love and care for you so much. please don’t go..